So today made me realize that i have so much ahead of me. They ssay life is what you make of it, and im making mine a fairytale. well im trying to at least. i want to think possitive of my life and love every minute of it even though thats hard to do in my shoes. most of the time i act like everythings going perfect when its really sufficating me. these days i feel i have no one to talk to. like ive been forgotten and as if i have dissapeard. but im still here! many dont realize that at all. this man in my life comes and goes. hes here right now but will he leave as fast as he came? i hope not. i like how he realizes im right for him and how we were ment for another. ive always dreamed of that day and today was that day. i went to panda for dinner tonight with my papa, it was amazingly good like always. and i got a slushy after. i love slushy's. As much as i would like to go back home and be with you all i cant. i have buissnes i have to take care of out here. i have things i need to do before i can start my life with you. i do all this just so me and you can have a perfect life for our future. thats why i had to leave you. and i think you now see that what i did was only somthing a strong person could do. I AM STRONG<3 i love you